I'm in class again. I guess thisis the only time I get to post lol! Anyhoo, I have NO idea what I'm supposed to be doing in class right now so I'm just gonna putter around on the internet. Ya know, I have this weird feeling that one day I'm gonna run across some naked pictures with my head on them. I'm not sure y I think that. Maybe it's cuz I have a number of computer savvy people who hate me....*sigh* What a shame.....I though everyone loved the Abby........ 

 My Valentines Day was good. Ladd and I just hung out and ate Eggplant parmesian(sp?)!!! How hottttt is he?

 I better go work now!!!!!!!!!!

 I'm at my siter's house right now....Have I mentioned that I like Ladd? Cuz, dangit, I do!! He's so much better than anyone else I've ever dated. He actually loves God and isnt just hanging out w my for the regular boy reasons! I just don't know what to do with myself(lol)......that reminds me of a song!

 

Yes ladies and not ladies! I failed my math test! But you know what? I'm kinda glad I did cuz not I feel motivated to do better! Around four o'clock yesterday I was handed my red ink covered test by an embarrassing sympathetic teacher. "You know, you can come to my office any time and I'll help you out." he said as I stared down in disbelief at that which had conquered me. My first thought was, "Put some green on this baby and it would look quite festive." I stumbled over my words and I think I got out a half hearted "thank you" as my heavy feet made the long treck out the classroom door and across the parking lot to my sad little car (that I might add was already full over other homework that I didn't know how to do).

 As I sat in my beat up Saturn, a wave of failure, and the realization that if I don't step up I'm gonna have to pay $650 to take the class again, swept over my and I lost it. I looked down in my lap at the now splotched and wet math test, and I made a decision. Right then and there I decided not to let this math thing walk all over me. I've always lived in fear of anything containing numbers! Well, I will fear no more! I'm going to face it and face it with (as my guitar teacher would say) bulldog intensity!

My pity party was over before it started. I threw the cursed test in the backseat to join an old sweater and a few half used water bottles, put on my sunglasses to hide my now puffy eyes, and threw my car confidently into gear. In my moment of triumph, I somehow managed to stall out, but that's not important to the story.

When I got home I decided to go running to relieve some of my pent up stress. It worked. Now it's impossible for me to think about homework because I can't feel my calves and my butt is killing me...............

 Well, my sore body and resolute mind are off to hit the books! I love Jesus!

 Once again, I find myself in class. I'm Abby, it's what I do(: The most recent exciting thing in my life is that I cleaned my bathroom yesterday. I even scrubbed the tub. I'll bet no one believes me! You could eat off of that thing! I wouldnt recommend it tho cuz I've been all naked in there and somehow I don't want anyone eating where I like to be naked. What could you really eat in a bathtub anyway. Soup or maybe Jello..... pudding! How fun would that be! A tub full of pudding! Ok, my mind wanders.............

 Anyhoo, I have one thing that I'm way stressing me out about lately. Don't bother asking cuz I won't tell you, but just pray for me cuz its one of those things were I'm just at a loss. Sometimes the right thing is right in front of your face but you don't wanna do it, and sometimes you don't even know if it's the right thing in the first place! Ok, rant is over!

 I have a test in my math class today*shudders*. I hate math so I'm praying for a C. Sometimes I wish I was gonna go away for school. Just get away from everything, ya know, and meet all new people in a totally new environment...maybe thats silly.....Pookie Do, I'm coming to your school *wink, wink* lol.

 I actually layed out yesterday! It was great. I only lasted like 10 mins tho cuz I got kinda cold lol. I want the summer to get here! I don't wanna freeze anymore. I wanna go on vacation somewhere sunny and full of cabana boys! Bring me a drink you muscle bound hotty and while you're at it rubb this lotion on me* sigh*. A girl can dream lol..........

 Wait! I fine myself not on a beach being waited on by male models, but in a cold classroom where some of the people smell not allot like the beach..........Oh well..........

I'm sitting in my computer class and it's kinda boring. This is really the only time I ever get to post tho, so I'm posting! Life is good. I feel under pressure from like five different directions, but its gravy. I hate sensative people lol!  I have to work all weekend so that kinda sux. I need me time. I have had no me time! I bought some REALLY cute clothes yesterday (go me!). I got a $50 jacket for $13! I know I know. I'm an expert shopper(:

I really should be listening to the teacher right now! But dangit! I don't wanna! This is boring and I'm confused anyways.........................

 

 

I'm in the computer lab right now. I should be doing my homework, but I'm not. Life is crazy. I've been feeling convicted about some stuff lately. I'm a Christian, I'm supposed to be an example to others and as of late, I'm just as freakin bad. I don't stand out at all. So, ya, I'm feeling pretty shabby about all that. Beka and I are having a Bible study together now, so that's really gonna help. Other than all that, life is pretty good. Rob came home and we got to hang out a little. I missed him while he was gone...no one to play video games with (hehe). I wish Jason was home.....I think he's in Chicago or something. I should call him.

 Ladd and I are umm...we are somethin lol. I really like him. He treats me better than almost any guy I've even been with. I'm scared of getting too attached cuz of how my life is right now. I'm so young and things are still really busy and crazy. I'm just scared of having another relationship were things end bad ya know.....I think I need to just chill.......My negativity is gonna kill it b4 it starts lol.

 Well, basically life is pretty sweet. My focus is TOTALLY school and work right now....and sleep fits in there somewhere........oh that reminds me.....I want to sleep.....ZZZzzzzzzz..........

 

 

I'm at school waiting for my computer class to start. Life lately has been crazy but good. The girls next to me are talking to each other about buying pants. How rivetting(sp?)..."they are like soooo ugly, but they are just so comfortable! I so can't be seen in them tho!"....*cringe*..... I miss Tay and Pookie Do! My chair just vibrated...ya..not cool! What the freak was that?!?! Ohhh...I think I like it j/k lol! I think I'm gonna move.........

Anyhoo, Rob is back! Yay! He and Kir are coming over today, so that will be really cool....ok, this post is way random...I'm actually gonna go study now............

 School has started and I spend all my time in the computer lab staring at my homeowrk, Taylor and Angela left me):, Eric came back (and has ALREADLY managed to stand me up once), I actullay talked to Mike without jumping on him and beating him till be cries like a little girl, Ladd and I broke up(but we are still talkin and stuff, so it's gravy), and my compter has a virus so it won't quit giving me dirty pop ups! There you go! That covers almost everything! My life is nuts!

 Last night was cool. Ladd and hung out while I dod my homework. BTW we broke up cuz we realized that we a SUPER different and might, at some point, kill each other if we are boyfriend and girlfriend. I still love him to death tho and I think we will still be chill. Our relationship has been back and forth from the begining. I just want to do the right thing and I think we have done it. It kinda sux tho....

 I talked to Mike w/o killing him!!! Arent we proud?!? Yes, it is true that I wanted to rip his crazy miss-porportioned face off, but I didn't and thats all that counts! He has the ability to basically piss me off worse than anyone I have ever met before. See, when I liked him, I liked him soooo much and when I hate him, I want to make him suffer like he has never suffered before. Everything w/ him is in extremes. I don't get it. He has a good person in him somewhere. I wish him the best. Pookie Do, please translate! lol

 And as far as Eric goes.... It basically boils down to this: I will always be there him(bcuz I'm a doormat) and he will always be a insonsderite shmo. I shouldnt expect anymore out of him unless he proves it to me in the first place. I know he doesnt do it on purpose, but none the less it's just as anoying! He really is a sweet guy, just maybe ALOT more dense than I have been willing to admit. lol

                 I miss Pookie Do and Shmoopy Do!

 Work was crazy tonight. Maybe it just felt crazy cuz I've been up since 6:30 am. I had issues with my classes(looooong story) and I had to go in early to talk to someone and get it all worked out. Pookie Do said that Mike was there all morning too. I'm glad I didn't see him. He would just be rude and then I would have to make some kind of effort to just be nice anyways cuz he is a screw up who just needs Christian love or whatever. Tho it could be fun cuz chances are he had a hangover, so I coulda run over to him and been like "HI!!!" in his face(lol). How fun would that be?! He needs to just move. I'm sick of hearing his name. Anyhoo, everything at PJC took forever, but it's over so YAY!

 Ladd and I are "official" or whatever now. It's good but feels odd, I'm not used to it yet. I'm not complaining or anything! I don't mind the idea of it. I just have to not think of myself as a "girlfriend" cuz I'm no good at it(lol). I care about Ladd SO much; he's great and I feel safe with him and everything. I just have to take things slow. Previous experiences(sp?) have sortof jacked me up. I have this feeling of waiting for the boom to be lowered or something.

Well, I'm gonna go do something productive....like play video games!!!!!!

Oh, BTW! Eric is coming home! Remember him? Ya. Wow. This should get interesting. I hope he doesnt have anything in mind cuz I'm with Ladd now. I don't think he thinks anything tho cuz he didn't ask me if I was seeing anyone. I hope we can just hang out as friends. We really used to get along really well.

Current Music: All American Rejects - Dirty Little Secret

 I'm sick as a dog, but I'm still having a good day. I had to call in to work today and I HATE having to do that cuz it makes me look like a slacker. Oh well. I changed the time of my guitar lesson to Monday. I really need to get back to playin cuz I'm already all rusty. It's wierd, I think I've been even more busy since school got out. Life moves too quickly.

 Next week my sister is going out of town for the entire week and Mom and I are taking care of the kids. That is gonna be mad crazy. I don't really mind, I'll just take a few extra shifts so I have an excuse to get out of the house(j/k...or am I?).

 I Layed around like a big lazy lump yesterday and I plan on doing the same thing today. I got to talk on the phone and just chilled out. If I wasnt freezing, sweating, sneezing, and coughing the entire time it would have been really fun ~ hehe! I really feel like crap, so I suppose I have an excuse to be lazy(: I talked to Angela and I'm excited about the New Years party at her house. I miss you, Pookie DO! I hope you know how much you rock! Seriously, if you ever think outherwise I will so kick you! Just don't kick me back cuz I bruise easy (:

 Anyhoo, Ladd is calling so I'm gonna get! Jesus loves me!!! And I love Him back!